Messing with the Wrong Mama!

Every day since we transferred Macy from the school I teach at to Canyon, she has cried. Every night before bed and every morning the water works are on. We have loved on her, soothed her, probed her, encouraged her, tough loved her, and done all that we know to do. We have exhausted our efforts to make her love school! Macy has never been a lover of school, but she's never been a hater either! I thought for a while it might be because for the first since Kindergarten she's going to school without me. She heard one of the students say, "that new kid is from dumbville!" ugh...I told her it wouldn't be long before they wanted to copy her work because she is so darn smart. We decided to let her visit with the counselor at school. For me this was a bit of a pride bruiser. Working in schools has allowed me into the lives of children with far greater issues. I struggled with the thought of her going to the counselor when she has a good, loving family, still intact and the most violence she has ever seen is on animal planet or her mother arguing with her Uncle Nathan. (let me just say, these are very healthy, normal, family arguments) :) I also know good and well that her little world has turned upside down. We are busy with church activities throughout the week, new town, new school...blah blah blah.

But, this morning I got so angry! She was crying and told me one of her teachers hated her and she has overheard her talking about her more than once. She heard her say, "that child has a horrible memory. I don't know how she ever tested into GT." Whatever that teacher said or didn't say wounded my little girl. My tough tomboy hates school because of something someone said without thinking first.

I guess I am so frustrated because I go to school everyday and teach other people's children compassion and manners. I love on those babies even on days that I feel like they have been true pills. Yet kids go to school and say hateful things and above all, a teacher!!!! throws words around as if she's not even there. I teach my kids at home to respect others, do their best and treat others the way they wish to be treated yet careless words are thrown around thoughtlessly. I am one mad mama!

I have emailed and got a response that I will get a phone call in the morning from this teacher. I really need to pray for a spirit of something....I don't know what. Any thoughts?

This is the Stuff

"In the middle of my little mess, I forget how big I'm blessed."

We started 2011 with a few little issues. Thank goodness they were "little" issues. Macy doesn't handle change well. And, well....there has been lots of change in her world! We went to see the gastro specialist. I won't even begin to try to spell the medical term for that! He changed up her meds for tummy issues and she seems to be feeling tons better.

I had a wisdom tooth show up out of nowhere over the Christmas break that was badly infected and causing tremendous pain. On Friday I got it taken out. The IV sedation had me so worked up, I thought I would be hospitalized because of my blood pressure! I was so nervous! I don't know why, after 3 c-sections, you would think I would be a pro at IV sedation. I think it was because they were going to be working on my teeth and I wouldn't be able to see what was going on.

Tadd got a good laugh at me as we went to walmart to get my pain meds filled and I told him I just needed to spit. I didn't want to leave my bloody gauze in the parking lot for fear that someone might see it and get sick, but I had no problem with leaning out the door and hawking non-existant lugies. He tried to tell me I had nothing to spit and finally pulled me back into the car. Thank goodness I don't remember this. Then I tried to bribe him into letting me eat Taco Villa promising we wouldn't tell anyone he let me eat solid foods. Anyways, weren't refried beans consider kind of a liquid? I'm glad I could provide his great entertainment Friday.

My fantastic Mama came and took care of me this weekend. It was so nice to sit and do nothing while she and Tadd took care of kids, meals, and laundry. I am so blessed. This is the stuff that makes me realize how great God takes care of me.

Resolutions?? ...Nah!!!

"Renewal is rooted in faith, not in resolutions! They are made for New Year's and forgotten on an average of thirteen days later, say the surveys. Faith is the result of a decision about Christ. I cannot make a new me or a new you, but Christ can make you new and me new, as well, if we decide for Him." Frank Harrington

I did not make any resolutions this year, but I do have goals. If I am going to have a blog...then by all means, I need to blog! So, my goal is to blog at least three times a month. Maybe then I can keep our far away friends and family up to date with our little family.

Another goal is to cling to the promise that He's not finished with me yet. The last couple of years have been filled with many ups and downs with our start of Sandhills Cowboy Church in Denver City and our move to Canyon for Tadd to pastor Palo Duro Cowboy Church. I love the song by Ginny Owens called If You Want Me To.

"It may not be the way I would have chosen. When you lead me through a world that's not my home. But You never said it would be easy, you only said I'd never go alone. So when the whole world turns against me, and I'm all by myself and I can't hear you answer my cries for help; I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through, and I will go through the valley if You want me to."

That's the least I can do. Right? My sinful past, things I've done that I am ashamed of, are wiped clean because of His mercy. So, I'll walk through the valleys, thankful He is walking beside me.

Another goal is to compete in the Warrior Race with my dear friend Aimee. It will take a lot of training and I will have to find time with our busy schedules. But, I'm ready!

Both churches are doing well. Sandhills has not found a pastor to take Tadd's place, but they are averaging 75-100 people a week and have had over 20 people commit their lives to Christ.

We are so lucky to be a part of PDCC. It is full of wonderful people and God has been at work there in amazing ways. I'm excited to see what God has in store for both of these churches in the next year.

Love Like Fire

I am desperate for Your touch
a glimpse of heaven
through the glory of Your Son.
In a moment You can

turn a life around
forever to be found in You.


I am reaching out to find
there's nothing greater than
Your love that holds my life.
Your grace and mercy that
have saved me by Your blood,
and swept away my shame Oh Lord.



Your love is like fire
that burns for all to see.
My only desire to worship at Your feet.
So let this fire consume my life.
Let Your love take me deeper
pull me closer to where You are,
'cause all I want is more of You.


and I'll surrender to Your love

forever humbled by the message of the cross.
I stand abandoned in Your presence and Your grace,
and I'll never be the same Oh God.


Your love is like fire,
that burns for all to see.
My only desire, to worship at Your feet.
So let this fire consume my life.
Let Your love take me deeper,
pull me closer to where You are,
'cause all I want is more of You.


When You call I will follow
at the cross I surrender all,
Jesus I belong to You.
I belong to You Lord


Your love is like fire,
that burns for all to see.
My only desire,

to worship at Your feet.
Your love is like fire,

that burns for all to see.


My only desire,

to worship at Your feet.
So let this fire consume my life.
Let Your love take me deeper,
pull me closer to where You are,
'cause all I want is more of You.


When You call I will follow,
at the cross I surrender all,
Jesus I belong to You.
Let Your love take me deeper,
pull me closer to where You are,
cause all I want is more of You.


When You call I will follow,
at the cross I surrender all,
Jesus I belong to You.

Hillsong lyrics